maru wrote: ↑Fri Aug 02, 2024 11:09 am
I've been going through a similar period, and I know a few friends who have as well. I sort of feel like it's an intra-generational, tidal thing.
Yeah, I feel like environmentalism is always a bit of a theme sitting around. It's tempting to say that it's part of being exhausted by the digital plenty? But it's not like that's changing, and I even heard from a video that on fashion-tok [sic?] maximalist design is coming in again. Which isn't necessarily opposed?
maru wrote: ↑Fri Aug 02, 2024 11:09 am
I had quite similar thoughts. [...] And the two consequences were that I feel like I put my whole heart into the abstraction machine; I was doing nothing but manipulating information and grappling with the Ether directly. At the time, I felt that if I didn't literalise my environment, I couldn't construct a complex self. If I didn't reflect back at myself in the environment, see my desires and loves reified, there would be not a lot to me.
The first time I thought about living a hyper-minimalist two-suitcases type life, I was embracing a very life-of-the-mind type interest in Mathematics and later linguistics. I think it's something about having a very rich set of mental (and/or digital) constructs being what you spend a lot of energy on is part of what made that a bit more appealing.
I also came from a hoarder house: primarily animal hoarding, but earlier regular hoarding as well. I think it's easy to point to that as the "obvious" thing that encourages minimalism, because with animal hoarding there's lots of animal sick and sometimes fecal matter, and I think a common coping method is generally not minding them but having a few areas or things (the bed I was sleeping in, my computer) that you ferociously protect and freak out if it gets dirty or damaged. I think the animal hoarding really started getting bad as the whole life of the mind spending all my time thinking about integrals?
maru wrote: ↑Fri Aug 02, 2024 11:09 am
- I try not to hoard. I don't always succeed! You ever watch those LGR videos where he has like warehouses full of retro computing stuff? I respect it. I see the necessity for someone to do that, to curate it all. But I feel like the opposite kind of person.
I think something I feel along with the minimalism thing and idealizing living in a smaller place is wanting to have either a bit of a "home-base" or a backup storage location. One of my sort of unrelated fantasies is dating/marrying into a family that has one of those big multi-generation or Big households with lots of siblings, and having that as a homebase I can visit fits in with it.
maru wrote: ↑Fri Aug 02, 2024 11:09 am
- I've started selling off things that seemed extraneous. I was going to sell my entire book collection but my roommate loves and collects books, and felt like it would be a waste if I did. I got an e-reader and started collecting books to read on that, instead.
- I felt like this even applied to computing until I became a bit more reliant on cloud hosting. I'm actually stumbling backward here — instead of hosting all my music in Apple Music I Syncthing across all my computers, but it means that even my phone is a fine custodian of large collections of data for any new computer I get. I just wanted to retain this feeling that if I lost my laptop, if it snapped in two, I wouldn't care. Nothing is specific to it.
Books are the other big thing I've kept, but I've leaned on having a kindle collection a lot more since I got it. Apparently the libraries where I live have a setup that lets you borrow ebooks temporarily, and I might lean into that too -- but ebooks are so small, and the impact of the physical space means I don't notice them as much.
I've never really figured out syncing software despite using Dropbox for a bit -- I either do very manual saves of folders, or Microsfts builtin backup one. I introduced one of my friends to Chromebooks and he's been using it for his writing project, and he is very happy that Chromebook + Drive means he can kinda view the laptop as almost disposable -- I definitely would lose at least a few things if I snapped my laptop in two.
For my next computer purchase, I've been contemplating getting a decent home tower or home tower + small home server setup, and getting a Chromebook or cheap laptop that I can remote into my server for more serious compute.
maru wrote: ↑Fri Aug 02, 2024 11:09 am
- I've always been averse to owning property for similar reasons. It's trite to say, but I don't feel ready to tie myself down to anything. I want to explore and keep moving.
Yeah, something about making Serious Commitments to owning things you can't carry around in a bookbag feels like you're making a vote for who you want to be not just now, but in the future.