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Following up on this playlist I made from the Japan thead I've started to just make playlists as part of memory integration. Most of the time I've made playlists as missives — way of communicating the uncommunicable to a friend. I care a lot about lyrics, sequencing, tone and all that ... it displays different angles, submits the proxies of my memory for inspection. Plus it gives me an excuse to make a cover, and I really like making covers.

I've been incubating one that mixes recent listens with trying to internalise what exactly happened to me the other weekend. I felt like I lost myself and came back with a completely different way of interacting with the world. So — how do I remember all that happening? It fades eventually...the only thing I ended up leaving with is to "love whatever the price," and so the title.



ListenBrainz, Spotify

If you ever make playlists or mixtapes — why not share them here?

As I started writing this post I was only halfway through the mix, and through my little drafts it ended. I like it a lot. The arc is just right, the sense of the intensity burning off, leaving behind this one, important thing. It's great, it hits in a familiar way, but its also very you, maru.

I focus a lot on sequencing and building a character with a mixtape. But, I am totally weighed down by whatever my current listening habits are. That meaning, I'm shortsighted and don't pull from as wide a pool as I should be! I wouldn't feel so constrained, needing to bend what I'm trying to get across if I went full-spectrum when pulling a mix together. But I get hooked on one song or idea, and usualy that's that. I either do historical guided tours through a particular discography or slice of a scene, or a stump of emotions, with all these nuances like roots that I have to turn down into one arc... Both lend themselves to throwing things out, and then I have all these songs I want to put together but they're such out-there choices I will never get to use them all.

Anyway, two mixes I will share tonight, representing my two types:
chewing on stars
concieved as a slice through the corners of the UK industrial scene I am familiar with, ended up including cameos from germany and new zealand! this youtube version is complete.

you pass right through me
dark, sad, emo and post-hardcore with some intrusions from elsewhere. I have another list like this stacked with really miserable angry tunes that I might rework. this is the youtube version, it is missing one track: CONSTANTLY WHITE by WANDA GROUP from the album GET INVOLVED IN MY THROAT

I've been chewing on a new playlist for a few weeks and finally spit out a final tracklist yesterday. The sequence could be smoother, with more lead in, more shared elements, but I think it is okay. Its good enough to post, anyway. My information diet is very sparse right now; im not listening to a lot of new music anymore. and that is probably hindering me, and I should change that, but I don't know when I will.

i'll get there, eventually
I've been on and off sad and sick, kicking around a couple of songs trying to find a good filling between them. At the same time I'm kicking around ideas about where my life will be going to, and in a lot of ways feeling hopeless and very much like a vegetable. I was very much tempted to put a much bigger slab of noise right in the middle of this. The version of Allegory of Allergies which Mistakes is pulled from is abridged from the casette release. When I saw it I groaned, because it's already a beast of a record. They cut a whole 25 minutes! And it's almost like a bit, since a year before it, they released a tape called 'bullshit boring drone band'. I dunno what their game was.

Song after song strung together in my head without really being called after — I guess I'm meant to be making a playlist. In a bunch of bad moods since 2025 started. Here's a playlist about it — titled "come what may..."



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